they ALWAYS must make me sad . burn my dreams and show me how stupid and naive i am .
i hate it .
i dont know if im sad or angry now . i feel bad . i need alcohol ..
i'll run away from here .. i wanna just be away from here . i hate hold here my blind dreams . i'll be fuckin teacher like my mom . i never'll be who i wanna be .
i hate it .
i dunno . i wanna cry and scream . i wanna hurt them like they hurt me . fuck , they do it again . i must drink some vodka . and no fuckin place to go . i feel alone .

i really hate it .